Well I guess year 13 has really begun to kick in what with my absence. I would also like to note that Cecily is also letting the side down (your publishable drafts are running very low *hint hint*).
The last three weeks have been pretty full on, but great. Minus a very horrendous Thursday and weird hormones. Suddenly the general outline for the next few years have fallen comfortably into place (gap year inc. some time in Deutschland, then off to University to study English or Liberal Arts). My UCAS application will be in by tomorrow evening (Final choices: Manchester, King's College London, Cambridge (Ha.), Edinburgh, Birmingham*) and then I can start my applying to the odd Dutch one. I am in a moment where how quickly the future and adult life is approaching is actually kind of ok.
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| The lightest weekend all term |
For the first time since year 10, I have one teacher I definitely don't like, and another I can't quite make an opinion on. I am also experiencing a desire to push back against authority, in a perfectly normal and healthy teenage way. All my experience of being an adolescent seems to have been pushed into this wonderful year of being 17. This one is just a bit odder than the rest because I guess in some strange way I am also now in a position of authority.
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| Chatting with Mum during my family's traditional first day at school photos |
I have once again become aware of how emotionally ruthless I can have a tendency to be if I don't watch myself. Actually "emotionally ruthless" is the entirely wrong phrase. On one hand, it's plain old emotional constipation. On the other hand, it's not having the time or energy to actually push out said emotions and consider them properly.
I haven't written in my diary since I last wrote on here and I can feel the emotional build up from not being able to expel all my thoughts. Every now and then I will catch myself wishing I had a completely secret blog where I could be slightly too open, and before I start saying that little bit too much I am going to go and journal.
Amber Run - I Found. They are my brother's friend's band so it's nice to see them doing relatively well
Gwendolen
*Dat offer range**
** For non-UK teenagers, they all ask for A-level grades of A*AA or AAA
I have recently discovered that UCAS is the spawn of all evil :)
ReplyDelete"wh-what I'm su-supposed to.. to make LIFE CHOICES?!?!" is the only thing I can think of when I'm doing my application! The whole thing has caused my brain to become 45% marshmallow.
Good luck in whatever you're applying for!
UCAS is horrifying and very time consuming and the feeling when you've finally submitted your application is incomparable trust me. but all your choices sound super rad (as is your coat by the way) good luck <3
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